The Shadow Side of Priests

In hearing of this latest priest pedophile scandal, I am not at all surprised. I have long known that priests are totally corrupt and hypocritical. However, I would like to ask the following question: What about nuns? How many lives in the 50's and 60's were ruined by those "women of god"?

I went to catholic school for 12 years starting in 1958. In those times, the sisters had absolute power in the schoolroom. They could hit you, verbally abuse you and humiliate you and there was no point in telling your parents because whatever the nuns did was ok back then, they were "women of god". They could make you stand in the garbage can or beat your hands with rulers.

The nuns was particularly good at nosing out the vulnerable children. If you were being abused at home, you would most likely be abused by the nuns. If you were rich and pampered, the nuns left you alone. Therefore the children who spent their home life being terrified were also terrified all day at school, leading to post traumatic stress syndrome later in life.

I was a skinny, fragile child. The first day of school for me at a catholic school in New York City, we were lined up in the schoolyard. A boy broke out of the line and attempted to run away and was beaten by the nuns in front of all of us. We all got the message to be afraid, very afraid. Several weeks later, I wet my pants because I was afraid to raise my hand and say I had to go to the bathroom. I was taken to the principal's office were I was slapped and screamed at. There were numerous instances in catholic school where I was slapped in the face, once for "looking sullen". This kind of behavior would result in a lawsuit now. Just as the boys who were molested in the 50's and 60's are coming forward and suing, I say why can't us regular "catholic school survivors" sue for what the nuns did to us? We are called "survivors" because we were lucky to have escaped with our sanity. Many of us have issues of toxic guilt and shame regarding the nuns.

I guess there were reasons for the sadistic behavior of the nuns back then. They had to bow down to the priests and treat them like gods but was that our fault? No, of course not. Maybe they were angry that priests got to live well while they took vows of poverty, chastity and obedience or maybe they were just sick individuals who abused children in their own way, the shadow side of the priests.

The older nuns are probably dead now and a lot of the younger ones left the convent in the 70's with the advent of women‘s liberation. I can remember my rage at seeing St. Joan, my algebra teacher, at a movie theater with a man in the late 70's. I just could not believe that this vicious bully had just waltzed away from the church after doing so much harm to so many. I do know though that since many of the allegations involve priests who are dead now, there should be some kind of justice for those of us who suffered so much physical and mental abuse at the hands of the "women of god".

The Year of the Flood by Margaret Atwood:   I couldn't put this book down!  It takes place in 2025, the year of the waterless flood.  The waterless flood is a pandemic unleashed upon the public by the Healthwyser Corps.  In this book, the police and everything else are taken over by the corporations...known as the "CorpSeCorps".   It is a totalitarian world where even the army is privatized.  The corps people live well inside gated communities and all others live in the pleemobs where there is poverty and crime, just like our world.  The corps run their illegal operations in the pleemobs (sex and drugs) and get rid of anyone who stands in their way.  This book resonates so much with real life now right down to references to spying insects, starbucks, macdonalds (under different names), "furzooters" (human directionals...the people who dress up and dance on the street to hawk some business...the fastest growing job in my town!) big pharma and even people being poisoned by corporate owned vitamins so they can make them have expensive treatments.  Political prisoners are either killed or sent to something called "paintball" where they kill each other off on reality television.  The story is told from the point of view of two women, Toby and Ren, who are members of an eco religious group called God's Gardeners made up of animal lovers, vegetarians and pacifists.   Ms. Atwood does a brilliant job of making up this whole new religion even  down to lists of saints (my favorite being Saint Christopher Smart of Cats, HA) and some really cool hymns which somebody in California recorded and you can buy on a CD.   Anyway, after the Corps starts persecuting God's Gardner's, Toby and Ren have to go out on their own.  Ren becomes a sex worker and Toby works in a health and beauty spa for rich corps women.   They are both isolated at the time of the plague, so they survive and go through horrendous ordeals before they find other people again.   In the end they hook up with survivors of Gods Gardner's who are now forced to eat meat and they find that the evil corps has genetically engineered a whole new creepy brand of humankind who don't wear clothes, purr like cats and are happy all the time.  This is a dark read.  It's like a combination of Orwell and Steven King but it is full of ideas and insights on where we are heading in this MAD, MAD, MAD world....it is very political. 

It was recently revealed that crop circles are not the creation of alien life forms, after all, but rather, by the nocturnal pacings of thousands of cats in search of the best places to use as litter-boxes.

The mystery was solved when Iman Id Iot, a local farmer, happened across the flighty felines pacing around and around his corn fields in search of a place to do their business and then curl up for a quick nap.

"I was astonished!" said Iot. "I'd gone out 'cuz I could smell somethin' awful comin' from the corn field. And there they were: hundreds of the mangy beasts - all of them just walking around and around like they was robots, or somethin'!"

Iot stopped, his voice shaking with fear. A few moments later, he resumed his story: "All of a sudden, they let out a terrible caterwaulin', like they was in pain, or somethin'. They screamed blue murder for a few seconds, and then they took up this weird position I ain't never seen cats do before: they up and stopped in their tracks, went all quiet-like, and then they squatted. It took me a sec to realize that they was doin' their business in my corn field!

"Well, I was flabbergasted," Iot continued, his eyes wide with remembered shock. "And then, all of a sudden, my eyes started waterin' - from the stink, ya see; them cats really let out some big ones! - an' I couldn't see nothin' more. When I finally got things back under control, the cats was gone, but there was these neat designs in my corn field. It was from all the pacin', ya see."

A quick look at the corn field in question revealed the intricate designs you see below, shown here with Mr. Iot's permission. Further inquiries into the existence of other corn fields in and around the area are expected to reveal the tiny paw prints of thousands of felines.

Interestingly, after the interview, Iman Id Iot mysteriously disappeared. It is believed that he was a victim of feline spray....

Humor: How To Tell Republicans from the Democrats
by ANONYMOUS

This little old lady calls 911.

When the dispatcher answers she yells "Help, send the police to my house right away! There's a doggone Democrat on my front porch and he's playing with himself!":

"What?" the dispatcher exclaims.

"I said, there's a doggone Democrat on my front porch playing with himself and he's weird. I don't know him and I'm afraid. Please send the police!" the little old lady repeated.

"Well now, how do you know he's a Democrat?"

"Because, you dang fool, if he was a Republican, he'd be screwing somebody!"

Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn. This book has everything for aficionados of the dark side of life. It's about a woman reporter who goes back to her hometown to cover murders of little girls. I just couldn't put it down. The heroine is a sensitive, sharp, intelligent cutter. The book shows the dark side of the American dream. Murder, cutting, Munchhausen by proxy, booze, drugs, sex, self centered materialistic yuppies and an absolutely disgusting pig farm. I highly recommend.

WHAT PETS WRITE IN THEIR DIARIES

Excerpt from a Dog's Diary........

8:00 am - Dog food! My favorite thing!
9:30 am - A car ride! My favorite thing!
9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favorite thing!
10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favorite thing!
12:00 pm - Lunch! My favorite thing!
1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My favorite thing!
3:00 pm - Wagged my tail! My favorite thing!
5:00 pm - Milk Bones! My favorite thing!
7:00 pm - Got to play ball! My favorite thing!
8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV with the people! My favorite thing!
11:00 pm - Sleeping on the bed! My favorite thing!
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Excerpt from a Cat's Diary...

Day 983 of my captivity....

My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets.

Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength.

The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape. In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the carpet.

Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body at their feet. I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts, since it clearly demonstrates what I am capable of. However, they merely made condescending comments about what a 'good little hunter' I am. Bastards.

There was some sort of assembly of their accomplices tonight. I was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event. However, I could hear the noises and smell the food. I overheard that my confinement was due to the power of 'allergies.' I must learn what this means and how to use it to my advantage.

Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one of my tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking. I must try this again tomorrow -- but at the top of the stairs.

I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and snitches. The dog receives special privileges. He is regularly released - and seems to be more than willing to return. He is obviously retarded.

The bird has got to be an informant. I observe him communicating with the guards regularly. I am certain that he reports my every move. My captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated cell, so he is safe. For now.

1.  A good novel.

2.  Smoking.

3.  Nature.

4.  Wine.

5.  Absurdity (I should have put this at No. 1).

6.  People watching.

7.  FELINES!

8.  Little kids.

9.  A trashy lifetime movie starring Torrie Spelling. 

10.  Intelligent conversation (rare). 

1.  War

2.  Lance Armstrong.

3.  Ophra

4.  McMansions.

5.  Yuppies.

6.  People who go on "health walks or runs", i.e., breast cancer, ect. 

7.  Lawyers.

8.  Doctors.

9.  The nanny state and its smug self righteous followers.

10.  The insane people who have american flags all over their cars. 

Thank you all for signing on to this website.  I was wondering why nobody wants to post pictures or blog?  Is it paranoia?  I can understand that, I feel really weird being out there for all to see myself.  I would really appreciate if you guys would post pictures  in your tinfoil hats or maybe just pictures of your cats to liven this site up and any blogs would be much appreciated!   If you are having trouble with the site please email me at kg64834@aol.com.  Thanks, tinfoil K. 

This is a great sicko movie which shows beyond a doubt that the average American is completely self centered and insane. It involves various government workers and others (narcissistic gym workers) who are all involved in a paranoid surreal blackmail plot. It's very New world order with the characters who don't think about anything but sex and beauty and kill people without remorse and high up men in government who are completely insane and don't know what they are doing. Nobody in this movie shows any guilt about anything or gives any indication of depth whatsoever. It's like they are all on Prozac or all spoiled children. There is a general feeling of total paranoia including black helicopters which I notice in a lot of movies and probably reflects the general paranoia of Americans. It's pretty funny though. John Malkovich is great as a drunken ex-government employee whose wife is cheating on him.

Next week cigarettes will be going up another $10 a carton.  Most of the smokers I know say "well, now I HAVE to quit, it's bad for me anyway".  Only a few are outraged that smokers are forced to pay taxes for illegal immigrant's children's health care.  No one is outraged that the government is basically saying that your body is the property of the state.  Children are forced to have vaccinations and chemotherapy.  There may be mandatory vaccinations for flu coming soon......There's going to be a sin tax on booze and sugary snacks.  Drinkers and the overweight are next in line to have their rights taken away from them.   Let's face it; the government does not care about out health.  There is another agenda going on here.  It is about control.  Controlling your body is the ultimate fascism.  They already control most American's minds with the TV.  Such is the power of the media that most smokers feel ashamed and weak and allow themselves to be treated as second class citizens because they think they deserve it.   Remember Black Pride?  It made black people feel really good about themselves.  We need Smoker's Pride.  We are a persecuted minority.   I read this book last week called "Slow Burn".  It is written by a pissed off smoker and analyzes the data on "second hand smoke" (totally bogus) and smokers deaths (that the "400,000 deaths from tobacco per year" factoid, which "everybody knows is true," did not come from medical records or post-mortem examinations, but is rather a statistical projection that resides in a computer!).  It also has a very interesting chapter about smoking fetish.  This is a new phenomenon where young men will pay for videos of attractive women (fully clothed, by the way) smoking.  Can you believe this?  These wimpy, dumbed down guys actually think smoking is naughtier than porn (which is totally acceptable).   The next step in the process of making the whole USA smoke free is regulating the amount of nicotine in cigarettes.  They will probably taste so bad everyone will give them up.  I have long suspected that our owners, the people who tell Obama (a smoker) what to do, know something about smokers that they are not letting on.  Could it be that smokers are smarter or more rebellious?  I read in another book that they have done studies on smokers to see if they have anything in common and the only thing that they could come up with that all smokers have in common is higher levels of depression than nonsmokers.  Depressed people tend to be depressed because they can see the truth for what it is.  Maybe that's why the government is so afraid of us.  

Secret Socities and Psychological Warfare written by Michael Hoffman.   This is a very scary read that puts forth the view that all of reality is basically engineered by the Cryptocracy and that high profile crimes such as Jack the Ripper and Son of Sam were basically done by the government as mind control.  It states that in the old world people were told that they were basically bad and therefore had to try to be good but now we are all told that we are great and think we are wonderful.  I myself was brought up in the catholic church and told I was bad constantly but I am a pretty ethical person and have met many people who were told they were wonderful and have no moral standards so I found that pretty interesting.  It tells about the kingdom of science and the "social robot".  It tells how on one hand officialdom condones violence but then turns around and shows it constantly on tv and movies thereby inducing mass insanity which we accept because we are actually afraid of freedom.  It tells how they no longer need MK ultra slaves because we are all being programmed by the "video drome".  It is not really an easy read but pretty interesting stuff. 

I wish some other people were on this site!  Help!  I am so alone here!!  Anyway, here goes:  In reference to the above book, has anyone ever wondered about that plane crash in the Hudson on or around election day?  That seemed like a real psyop to me.  It was like, well the economy is crashing but the BOA officials are fine and standing there grinning on the wings of the plane, so don't worry, everything is ok. Also, does anybody remember that before the OJ saga there were hardly any Starbucks and then all of a sudden they were all over the place?  Same with SUV's.  I hardly saw any before that and then all of a sudden they were all over the place.  Anybody have any interesting ideas about the OJ murder case being a psyop?  Or am I crazy?  I knew 911 was false immediately on the day it happened.  I was watching tv and they interviewed this woman on the street and she was going on about America the great and there was this suspicious looking Arab type guy in the background.  I knew right then that she was an agent of the government and this was a set up.  I'm from NY myself and people there just don't talk like that, well back then anyway....New York has changed a lot since I left and seems very Disney like to me.  It has the same "invasion of the body snatchers" feeling that California has.  What's a good state to live in if you are aware of the NWO?  Any comments?  Well, thats all for now and hello to anybody who signs on to this web site.